Bennu Too

Warm Brown Sugar Vanilla

2009-11-22T18:17:00.002-06:00

Last night I made myself go out
Yes, MADE
You see I have been staying in too much
which is not the story for today

As I sat down at the bar
I noticed there were three
Three bald men
sitting at the bar

I found that humorous
and took a picture
sent it as a text to friends
asking if I didn't receive
the memo
stating it was
Bald Guy Night

One great friend
wrote back and said
I should just go for one of them
til I reminded her
about the last bald man
I dated
who she refers to
as
The Loser
she said that must have been
my perfume
so wear a different perfume

and that is where our story begins
plus I don't know
if I have told this story before
but I might have

The waterboy

he was so charming
and we had plans one day
to take a trip to Austin
and spend the evening together
so on the phone
he called
I was so excited
we made a plan for him to pick me up
then we discussed
how I had not
contrary to usual
brought him a surprise
and he responded
that he didn't
have any surprises for me
either

then later in the day
he drove up
in a new vehicle
that he bought in my town
so that he could have a reason
to have it serviced there
and service me as well
from the way he told it

we drove down the highway
holding hands
and laughing
having a wonderful time
I was smiling
he was smiling
we had a few drinks
checked into a motel
and I whipped out
the surprises
yes, even though I said
I had none
I did
my clock radio/cd player
so we could have music
and an alarm
and body glitter
that was a running joke
with the two of us
I talked him into wearing it
on his forehead
and we went to dinner
after working up a hunger
for food
by satisfying our carnal hunger
We sat side by side
more drunk than either of us
would admit
It was a decadent dinner
with the two of us feeding each other
laughing
playing
and having a great time

when we got back to the room
he opened the back of the red demon
and pulled out a huge
not just big
huge gift basket
from Bath and Body Words
in the flavor of the post title
It had everything
bubble bath
liquid body soap
lotion
body spray
lip goo
and more
that I can't recall

I loved it
I wore it
I was totally surprised
he loved that I loved it
I wore it after that
all the time
until he and I
were no more
and then
then I couldn't
could NOT
even stand the smell of it
the reminder
of a time
when I was blissfully
happy

that was 7 years ago

in the mean time
I have received gifts
from friends
and at Christmas
functions at work
that were similar
in scent
and each time
I acted happy
and brought it home
and put it away

and today
today I was cleaning
and ran across a box
of things that were packed
by someone else
and in it

you guessed it
one of those gift items
with lotion
and body spray
from a less expensive company
that was a gift
and I opened it
and I still like the scent
and now
just now
I think I can wear it
but all the memories it stirred up
were here in an instant
and I wish I had him here as well
but he took another path
and I wasn't on it.

Monday, First day back at Work List

2009-01-05T04:09:00.001-06:00

Make it through the day....

short list
big chore
many little items under that big chore.

Friday, Jan 2 list

2009-01-02T14:02:00.002-06:00

write new blog post about my most wonderful New Years Eve-done
grocery shopping
wash dishes
get ice (I buy crushed ice- a bag lasts at least a week)
clean out the car
work out

still taking it easy from not sleeping all night on NYE... so short list today

and yes, I did get everything on the other list done on Wed.... woohoo

New Year's Eve

2008-12-31T07:46:00.002-06:00

Today is a busy day

List:
Blog
Soak Blackeyed Peas for tomorrow
Work out
Clean up for lunch date
Pack clothes for beach excursion
Rearrange things in car
Mail Netflix movie back (The Holiday, 4 stars)
Buy gas for trip
Buy new headlight
Open new bank acct
check on existing bank acct
Pay rent
Buy ice for home and trip
Eat lunch at 11 with new date (scary)
get whatever I didn't get done before lunch done
lock up house
drive to coast
walk on beach
eat dinner at favorite restaurant
return to beach
spend the night
(motel or beach, not sure yet)
walk on beach
take pictures
drink coffee
drive home
cook and eat blackeyed peas for good luck
workout
call friends and family
and wish them a Happy New Year
Decide how to get Muse's books to her

ok so that is a two day list
I will check it tomorrow to see how I did.

Happy New Year!

The Gift of Time

2008-12-30T21:57:00.001-06:00

I have now known Mr. Duvall
for 4 years
or so it will be in about 3 weeks
and the first year
we didn't exchange Christmas gifts
and the second year
I gave him boxer shorts
with button flies
and he bought me a drill
last year
I don't believe we gave gifts
I kinda remember him
saying we shouldn't
but I am not sure
I remember the birthday gifts
I have given him
and the one I have asked him for
which is to come see me
on or near my birthday...

this year
before Muse made her exit
from my life
she was discussing a gift idea
that had to do with time
and I remembered
how Mr. D has been wearing
the same watch
since I met him
so I liked her idea
and did a small spinoff
from it
after sharing some ideas
I had
with her, so that she may have
benefitted from using them

I put the gift together
in a big box
and all the items inside
had a note attached
as to their part
in the
Gift of Time

I wrote out the card
that said
each time I see him
it is like Christmas morning
and the greatest gift he has given me
is our time together

Anyway

The first gift was

It's Hunting Time

a headlamp that clips
onto a cap bill
so that he can hunt
under red light
and see where he is going
he loved it
but mostly because
he has to open gates with locks
early each morning
and he could use the headlamp
when it is dark out
and not have to use the lights
from his vehicle
(I was proud of this choice
because he actually really needed it)

A Time to Die
for the fleas and ticks that is
He hunts and traps feral pigs
and they are nasty animals
and more than once I have heard
about how he was the new home
for fleas and ticks
due to the moving of the pigs
so
a couple of wrist bracelets
similar to flea and tick collars
to help with keeping them at bay
and off his beautiful body

He asked if they work
and I said
I hope so

Time for Warm Feet
without me there to warm them

foot warmers
found in the hunting/camping area
disposable and cheap
he said he always wanted to try them
and now he can

Bed Time

New pajama bottoms
the last pair I bought two years ago
are wearing out
and a new look was in order
he opened them up and put them on
right then
New pantalones
as he puts it

Time For a Drink

A nice big bottle of Chivas
that he will not purchase
on his own
he drinks the cheaper stuff
until someone gets him a bottle

Time for a Road Trip

a silver flask
with a nice little feature
of an arm to hold to the lid
so you don't drop it
when you take it off to pour a drink

Time for a change

New boxer shorts
three pairs

he couldn't believe I could find
boxer shorts with buttons
at the local sporting goods store

Time For A Roll In the Hay

A token
that says
it is good
for a Roll in the Hay

he, of course, said
he needed a jar full of them
I said it was reusable
that I would only need to see it
not take it from him
then he was happy and smiled
and said
well in that case,
look at this...lol

and then there was

3 rolls in the hay

and the gifting resumed

Time for a Foot Rub

New foot cream for great foot rubs
that he says will put him to sleep
but they haven't yet

Shower Time

A small box of goodies
for the shower
that are his favorite

And

the big gift was a watch
since it was

Time for a New Watch

and he admitted
he had been wearing that watch
for about a dozen years

11 gifts for each hour on the clock
and months in the year
and then I said
and the best gift I can give you

is me
for the time we have together today

and he was so appreciative
and said he thought it was
the best Christmas gift
he had ever received
it was a great day
and that was just the beginning of it

I love giving thoughtful gifts
to those I love
but I have never enjoyed
anyone opening them
more than him

he fussed of course
stating I should not spend
my hard earned money
on him
and I said
I did it because I wanted to
and he said
before he left
he hadn't ever received
that many gifts...

and oh what I would do if
we were together more...
he cannot even fathom....

My Favorite Part

2008-10-18T11:30:00.004-05:00

She looked at the phone
again
and it was barely
a minute later than her last
glance
the suspense and
anticipation of him calling
had her busting at the seams

the text messages had been clever
and flirty
and made her laugh
and his showed LOL
so she knew he was smiling

then the all familiar tone
of the cell phone cut the silence
she jumped
surprised
then picked it up and answered it

the conversation flowed
from initial introductions
to family background
and then common ground
she was smiling
and he was laughing
and a good time was being had
finally she yawned
and he heard it
and they looked at the time
an hour and a half had passed
so he asked her out
to meet in person
and she secretly jumped up and down
as giddy as a school girl
YES YES YES! her inner voice screamed
That would be nice
said very politely
hmmm where should they go
the discussion continued
they came to a decision
and a time
and it was done

for two days she worried
about what to wear
how to style her hair
what would he think?

and the day came
and she rushed around at home
after work
getting ready
a fresh shower
demurely seductive lotion
a little cleavage but a respectable outfit
not too much makeup but enough to make her feel pretty

and she showed up on time
he called to ask where she was
I am in the bookstore by the cards
where are you?
was her answer

about a minute away he said
and she pretended to read cards
until he arrived

they instinctively hugged and said hello
and turned and walked out of the store
and into a dream

he made her laugh
she saw things they had in common
he was a gentleman
yet she could see his ruggedness
he dressed well
in boots, jeans, and a starched shirt
his short flat top hair cut was a huge
turn on for her

and they spent two hours over dinner
which never seemed to wain
the conversation flowed
the food divine
the company uncomparable

they walked out
he touched her waist
held her hand
walked and talked along the sidewalk
they walked to her car
he stopped and kissed her sweetly
and then kissed her on her neck
several small
very sexy kisses
that melted her right into the ground
she giggled
he asked
What?
she smiled
so, do you like me?
he asked
oh yeah, she answered
and you?
she inquired
yes, I like you he retorted
like how could he not like her

that is my favorite part
the time when it is new
and your flirt
and you aren't sure
but you think you might
spontaneously combust
from all the chemistry

a great first date

A Tribute

2008-04-13T10:06:00.003-05:00

For three years
Mr. Duvall
has been in my life
the story of how we met
is here
and many of our
many afternoons
and evenings

On nearly every occasion
he has felt the need
to tell me
he isn't
The man for me
and I knew he was right
but we have had
a very good run
of good times

and there have been times
two in fact
when I had thought
it was time
for us to stop seeing
each other
because I felt I had met
a man
that might be
THE man
but I was wrong
both times
and Mr. D
was the first to know
that I was mistaken

and now,
here we are again
only this time
I dont' believe
I am going to ever return
to our afternoons

but we will always
always be friends
Some days I think
it should end
but then it doesn't

One day
it will end
completely
but until then
I will enjoy every minute..

Merry Christmas to ME

2007-12-25T19:17:00.000-06:00

Right after Thanksgiving

he called

he asked her to meet him

at the usual spot

She was so relieved

She didn't think he would

after the last big conversation

where she was concerned

about her health

and he thought her symptoms

more than just stress

although she knew better

She thought he was gunshy

and would not be back

soon

or at all.

Perhaps the relationship

had

as she had dreaded

run it's course....

but then

here he was

on the phone

asking for her company

and she accepted

in absolute ecstasy

Their afternoons

are always great

and this one was no different

so she stepped out

on a limb

and said

"You know what

I want for Christmas?"

and he replied

with a bit of hesitation

in his voice

"what would that be?"

and she said

I would like you to come to see me

to stay the night

to cook a great meal

to eat together

perhaps a dance or two

and breakfast in the morning

and he was silent

and their afternoon passed

in a blur of laughter,

passion, and love

though they will never discuss it.

She knew she would not see him

the next weekend

he was attending a birthday party

for his granddaughter

in the far north.

Then the weekend

after the birthday party

she thought she might get

a Sunday afternoon

invitation

and then the call came

only he asked

if he could spend

Friday night with her

in her abode

She was so happy

and stated an emphatic

YES

Then he asked

if they could forego

the gift giving this

season

and she replied

Yes Sir, but

You are already giving me

the gift I asked for

and later she asked

but what if I already

have your gift?

so he gave in

for once

which is rare for him

and then he showed up

on time

with a smile on his face

They played,

They talked,

They cooked BLT's

(favorite staple)

and they showered

the evening was all

she wanted it to be

and more

except for the dancing

which he explained

the last two times he had danced

had been with her

and they were far and few between

so she gave into that one

and she was happy

when he left her the next morning

feeling like her Christmas

couldn't get any better

He called on Saturday

to see how she felt,

if her back hurt, or she was tired

He called on Monday

because he was sick

and wondered if she was

and then she found out

he had slept

in a cold cabin

on a cold night

on a hunting lease

and he was paying for it

with a cold

or the flu

but no

she wasn't sick

He called on Thursday

and said

he wasn't calling again

because he had called

the last three times

she laughed

and he asked about her

weekend plans

she said she had few plans

he asked if she would like

him to spend Sunday night with him

Christmas Eve Eve?

Hell Yeah she would

what happened that she got this

wonderful opportunity?

she didn't care

she took him up on it

He showed up later

he claimed never again

at least not after 8 pm

and she shushed him

she likes when they get to sleep

all night

or almost all night

so there will be no

claims of never again

she put her foot down

figuratively

They went to breakfast

after a frothy shower

and he dropped her off

with a hug and kiss

and she knew

she knew

it was the best gift she had had

in her life

even if he

isn't
That Man

he is

a Very Good Man

who is treating her well....

and in about a month

she will have a birthday

and she can't wait

because that is when he usually comes to see her

and it will mark three years

with an amazing man

that treats her so well.

I Am Thankful

2007-11-22T18:53:00.000-06:00

She had been cooking all day
The time had come
when she cooked the meal
with her mother coaching
from the sidelines

All she had tried to create
turned out great
and all at the table were thankful
even if it was
just her mom
her youngest son
and herself

As she took the last bite
of her dessert
she heard Johnny Cash
singing
Burn Burn Burn
The Ring of Fire
and she looked at the name
and it was a potential beaux

Finally,
Finally a man
Finally, a man, who calls on a holiday
to wish her well
and tell her
he is thankful she is in his life

now, it may not turn into anything,
but she feels better
to know
there are men out there
that know it is important
to call on a holiday
and it makes her feel special
and means so much to her.

I am thankful there are still good men out there.

After a year of
Mr. Turnaround
Mr. Sullivan
and a few others

she was beginning to wonder.

One Great Day or Happy Birthday Mr. Duvall

2007-10-08T22:38:00.000-05:00

This is the third birthday

Mr. Duvall has had

since I met him

The first year

I am not even aware

of knowing

when his birthday was

Last year

I gave him

boxers with a button fly

his favorite

and not easy to find

he was thrilled

and it was a great day

this year

a few weeks before

when we saw each other

I explained

that I had a special surprise for him

for his birthday

so we should see each other

as soon afterwards

as we could

because I was going to be

spending my mother's birthday

with her

and he had tickets to an Astro's game

so he was out of town

He said not to make a bother

and I said it was a pleasure

not a bother

I asked what he thought

his kids would do for him

and he said

they would probably just send him a card

he said it sarcastically

and then said

he had bought them cars

and spent hundreds of thousands

on them and their educations

but he would be lucky to get a card

He didn't need new shirts

or gift certificates

Remember when you got money in cards? he asked

and that was that

The day before his birthday

he called to check on me

and my trip

I reminded him to call

before he left for the game

the next day

he asked why

and I said

so I could sing HB to him

and he said

he was too old for that

and I said he wasn't ever too old

and he proved it everytime I saw him

and he wasn't too old for me to sing

Happy Birthday to you

He said,

well let's just wait til you are 59

and see if you want someone singing to you

or to even have birthdays

So in the interim

I found the perfect card

even though I had bought one already

this one was perfect

it had 4 kid faces on it

kinda like they were talking to each other

and it was in 1950's style

and said

Remember when you were a kid

and you got money in a birthday card?

and you open it up and it says

something to the effect

It isn't any fun being an adult is it?

and then it said

Happy Birthday

omg, it was perfect

and I vacillated over how much to put in it
I mean
I could afford the 59 dollars
but that wasn't the point
he wouldn't want me to spend that much
in addition to the cd I had for him
and then I finally settled
on 21 dollars
and a note that said
It is one dollar for every year
isn't it

nailing the sentiment home
that his age is just a number
not what defines him

so Sunday
I drove south
with a cd player
a new cd
and an exercise cd (freshly burned copy)
for a six pack
that I know he has
but he says he doesn't
due to beer drinking

(told him a while back
I would give him a six pack (abs)
for his birthday)

and his card with the cash

He hasn't been feeling well
so I took homemade
chicken noodle soup
blt sandwiches
and home made banana nut bread
since he doesn't do sweets
so cake was out of the question

I didn't sing HB
but I did sing
The Hokey Pokey
at a very special moment
lol
and he laughed so
it was a great day
and I told him
Birthdays
to me
are not about the number
but the celebration of life
and those that are in your life
are the most important to me
so I was glad we could celebrate
and when I turned 59
I would want him there
to sing to me

and of course
he had to figure out that number

it is a great friendship
I will always cherish it
even when it turns to
a more traditional friendship

and when I called
on my way home
at the time/place
where we usually check
to make sure we are both
nearly home safely
he answered the phone with

Don't bother me, I am listening to my new George Strait CD...
so I think he liked his birthday party
he thanked me many times
for the thoughtfulness of it all
and his delight showed
in all his reactions
and actuons
throughout the day

it was so nice
to see him so happy
after the year he has had
with the loss of his brother

It is so much fun
for me
to do things that make someone
I care about
feel good and
special
it was

One great day....

One Great Surprise

2007-09-17T22:20:00.000-05:00

He called early in the day
around 10 am
and asked what she was doing
that afternoon
and she said
I think I will drive South
for the afternoon
and he laughed

They devised a plan
and she began her preparations

She drove south
wearing a very provocative
White top that was low cut
sleeveless and
tight, ok, kinda tight

with a great floral
black and white print
that was sheer and flowing
and lined with a black slip like lining
and commando

the music was loud
she was thrilled
to have a great afternoon
to look forward to
with great company

somehow she missed the call
but saw that she had
voicemail
and it was him
he was there
he was going to get in the shower
but he left the door open
and would call back if
she didn't show up
before he got out of the shower

and she looked at the mileage
and knew she would be a bit late
so she waited for him to return
the call
and he did
and she said that she would be there
in 10 minutes or so
and she drove a little faster

When she arrived
she got her things together
and walked toward the door
Usually she knocked
and he answered
with a kiss and a hug waiting
but today
today the door was not shut well
and she knocked
and pushed on the door a bit
and as the door opened
she saw him
sitting on the bed
with the sheets turned down
and all he had on
was a smile

she was so tickled
she laughed
and walked in
shut and locked the door
and walked over to him.
She was beaming
he brought his A game
as he always did
and she told him
how much she liked
her surprise
and he told her
she was tardy
and was going to receive
a tardy slip
and she said she would see
if he would change that
to an excused tardy
as she stradled him on the bed
and he realized
she was just as ready
to make love to him
as he was to her....

Some great surprises
make up for some Crappy ones

and she received a
rescended tardy slip
and a gold star to boot

She can't wait til she is
summoned for a conference
down south again...
which won't be long
because they will be celebrating
his birthday very soon..

OK I Just Don't Get It

2007-09-17T05:28:00.000-05:00

Last Fall
as you know
if you have been reading
for awhile
or have read the archives
I met two men
well actually
I met many more than two
but I met two
that I really liked
and if the first one

Mr. Turnaround
had paid more attention
more often
I would not have met
any after him
but his presence
or appearances
were sporadic
so yes, I met two men
Mr. Turnaround
and Mr. Sullivan
and they both turned my head
I was smitten with them both
Mr. Sullivan appeared
after Mr. Turnaround
and departed before
Christmas
for reasons that I truly believe
had nothing to do with me
but issues with his father's health
and the stress that puts on a man child
when their father is in a vulnerable position
but who knows
maybe that is just wishful thinking on my part

Anyway, about a month ago
Mr. Sullivan calls
out of the clear blue sky
and wants to see me

I have eluded to this meeting with him
but I hadn't told the story

So we decided that he would pick me up
and we would go for drinks
so I could hear the story
of the dream he had about me
while on vacation in Canada

He picks me up
he has gained so much weight
I almost don't recognize him
he is jovial
we arrive at our destination
order drinks
he explains the dream
which was a combo of things
he had been reminded of me
in two different circumstances
so I am not surprised about the dream,
so the conversation turns
to me, and school and life
and then it starts
he asks many questions
he asks about other men
that he has known I was seeing
when I saw him
you see
he asked then
and found out about Mr. Turnaround
and Mr. Duvall
because he wanted me to
see only him
and I didn't want to quit seeing Mr. Turnaround
As for Mr. Duvall
that is a given
that it will end permanently
the minute a man wants a relationship with me
and I want one with him
it has stopped before
so that isn't a big deal
anyway
he asked
I explained that Mr. Turnaround
found others that he wanted to spend
his time with
even after asking me
to be patient and wait for him
this summer
which I tried to do
I am just not good at it
patience that is
and
the questions continue
and I want to scream
WHY? why do you want to know
what is it you want?

I mean this isn't my first rodeo
a man calls or writes
says he has a story to tell
says he wants to see you to tell it
he is testing the waters right
to see if you want to see him
and to see if he still wants you...
so Why?
why ask these questions?
We have had about 3 drinks now
and I hadn't eaten all day...
and he had mentioned dinner
but when I ask
why he was having drinks with me
early on a Friday night
did he have plans later
it came out that there was
a poker game he was contemplating
and then he couldn't get me home
fast enough
and by the time we were in the car
the tears came
they were a combo
of stress, anxiety
and feeling rejected
he expressed a desire
to be friends and do things together
and I told him I don't do that well
with men that meant so much more
to me
because rarely can I separate those feelings
and he has friends
and to be a friend takes as much
or more work
than a relationship between lovers
and confidants
and I didn't think he could do it
but if he wanted to try
we could

yeah... that didn't pan out
he didn't even try
and that was fine
but then
yesterday
I heard from Mr. Turnaround
who said we should have a glass of tea
of course he is a man
of much fewer words
and that is the meeting I wrote of
yesterday.
I don't know his motivation
He slipped away
for reasons I still don't know
guess I wasn't woman enough
or the fact I like to hear a man's words
and he shared so few
that I made some up for him
that were not the right ones
and I over reacted to some situations
in ways I am not proud of
he said
things just didn't turn out
for whatever reason
so I don't know
all I know is
that I am glad
that there aren't any others
who can call me up like that
and see me
just to see
what I am not sure
but stir up emotions
that I thought were pretty much gone
and then walk away

I am not up for that again
anytime soon.

I think this not dating thing
is going better than I ever would
have expected
I quite enjoy not being
rejected
worried about what he is thinking
and wondering if or when he will call

and the time and energy I was pouring
yes, Mr. Turnaround, pouring
into thoughts and actions
and wanting things to be good
with someone who wasn't on the same page
can now go somewhere else
and has been for awhile
so those things are hard to give up now

so yes, I wished I was doing other things
but only because they were going to show progress
and sitting and shooting the bull
was not
It was good to see him
It was painful to feel all the old feelings rise to the surface
and be able to tell
they weren' t for him...

but now it is over
and I can move forward
even though I don't get it
I don't understand what they
thought they were going to gain
or what they did gain
by seeing me
but if it was to help them move forward
then I hope they do understand it
and it was helpful.

RJ has rarely steered me wrong
and his take on both situations
was the same
but if I listen to what he said
I feel even more rejected
because he says
they were testing the waters
about dating me again
and I remember a time
when he hadn't met the woman
of his dreams
and he was contemplating looking up
an old girlfriend
and taking her back
and I so
DO NOT want to be that person...
and even then
I told him
not to...

don't do it just because you are lonely
and don't want to be alone
don't settle...
and see
he didn't
and he met the woman of his dreams

but since neither of them
Mr. T or Mr. S
explained their intentions
I don't know
and I still don't get it.

The Days get away from me

2007-09-17T05:26:00.000-05:00

and now it is getting darker earlier and earlier.
I did get my walk in on Saturday
but gave up my walking time last night
for the opportunity for a door to close.
A door to my past.

now that is done, so perhaps my walking will commence.

The Vision

2007-09-04T21:56:00.000-05:00

It had been a long day
She was exhausted
Her bed was so inviting,
she propped her head up
on two fluffy pillows
laid down
in her freshly laundered sheets
with nothing but her nude body
to enjoy the softness of
the white cotton
500 count sheets

The TV was on Court TV
with the soft voices detailing
the most outlandish crimes of passion.
She intended to watch for 30 minutes or so
and then go to sleep.

The mattress moved as his body
weight pressed against it
She felt the shift in the bed
she turned to him
he took her body into his arms
and held her close
softly kissing her forehead
and cheeks
her knees entwined
between and on top of his legs
their feet softly caressing
each others
she nuzzled down into his
strong chest and relaxed
he continued to caress her hair
and hum to her

She loved being held
the safety, security
and feeling of someone
caring so deeply for her
far outweighed
the throws of passions
when she had survived
a long hard day
with the trappings of
arguments over inconsequential details of life
whether at work, or
with land lords, or
with children,

and here
here in his arms
it all fell away
and he was there
just for her....

then his voice reminded her
of someone famous
Dominick Dunn maybe

and then she noticed
the tv was on
and she had dozed off
so she turned it off
with the remote, and
returned it to the bedstand
took her glasses off
and hugged her pillow

anticipating the day
it was him
and not a pillow.

Fantasy of a Lifetime

2007-08-11T22:25:00.001-05:00

She gazed at the house
with it's big windows
large wrap around porch
stucco sides
rock chimney

She scurried
up the sidewalk
to the porch
with great excitement
She opened
the heavy, wooden,
door
into the great room
with a sunroom
off to the right
the fireplace on the right
in the corner
and opposite it,
the kitchen and
dining area
Her heels clicked
on the gorgeous wood floors
She looked up
above the kitchen
and saw the railing
for the room upstairs
with it's 4 beds
3 twins and one Queen
for family when
they come to visit
and she walks past the kitchen
with it's restaurant grade stove
stainless refrigerator,
and island sink and counters
with a bar
through the great room
and into the master bedroom
It isn't a big room
but it is big enough
for a queen size bed
and bedroom furniture
and they can both move
around without feeling cramped
the bathroom
has a walk in shower
without a door
shaped like an S
and a ledge for sitting
while showering
most of the S wall
is glass bricks
in the corner is a
spa tub
big enough for both of them
and two sinks
and the small
room for the toilet
and off to the left
from the door
is the walk in closet
they share
she walks out
of the bedroom
and into the kitchen
where there is a door way
to the sunroom
and office
as she walks through
she passes the
laundry room on the right
and finds just past it,
the door to the office on the right
the office is small
and to the back
of the sunroom
facing the backyard
just big enough
for a desk for him
and one for her
and a wall of bookshelves
She walks out
and sees the stairs
leading upstair
and the sunroom
to the left

As she walks
through the sunroom
she is so happy
she thought she might not
ever see it
anyplace but in her head
and she gazes out
past the porch
into the yard
and sees him
sitting by the pool
with a towel
and a drink
waiting for her
to join him.

The style is

A Craftsman Bungalow

similar to the picture

but not exactly

(My dream home)

Dreams

2007-08-04T09:56:00.000-05:00

A man I saw
for a short amount of time
last year
around November
called me up
about a week ago
to tell me
he had dreamt about me
He wanted to know
if I was dating
he wanted to get together
to have a drink
and share the dream
with me

We got together last night
and he really didn't have much to describe
in the dream

but something else he said
stuck with me
he said that he usually doesn't remember dreams
he has
in the middle of the night
but if they are early in the morning
right before he wakes
then he sometimes does
remember them...

I know I dream
I know I dream often
I rarely remember them
but last night,
in the middle of the night
I had a dream I do remember
vividly

there was a nest of sorts
and a foal (baby horse)
was lying in the middle of it
he was "smoking"
there was smoke coming from around him
but there was no flame
and it didn't stink
I was just scared
to touch him
and someone told me
he was on fire
and he just looked up at me
with such a sad look
in his eyes

Then there was a naked man
with a thin, beautiful body
who asked with his eyes
for me to take him
to bed
and I laid down beside him
and began to stroke him
and he had the "perfect" dick
and it came alive in my hands

then he got up and walked away
and I went to find him
I had on a pink t-shirt
that had a cuss word on it
but I don't remember what the word was
I didn't have any pants on
just panties
and no bra

and I was walking through the building
trying to find him
I was in a building
that was my place of work
and I had on flip flops too

well, besides being nearly naked
I had on a shirt
with an expletive on it
and flipflops
which are both
huge no-no's
at my work

and I kept running into
people that are in a
supervisory position
or the "big wigs"
in our company

so it was very
embarrassing
and stressful
and it didn't matter
how much I tried to explain
what I was doing
and who I was looking for
I just felt
horrible...
and room after room
restroom and halls
and large rooms with chairs

and then I was out
in the field
where the foal
was burning
and all that was left
was the smoke
and burned spot
in the hay where he had been...
and that
is all
I remember

Babes

2007-07-06T21:45:00.000-05:00

I love good onion rings
but nothing is better with them
than a great burger
and there is a place here
in this fair city
called
Babes
which is a great burger joint
with a sports bar feel
with just beer and good food
and I like to go there

but it never fails
when a guy asks me
where I like to go for a good burger
and I say
Babes

they think I am referring
to a local strip club
by the same name...

ummmm I haven't ever been there
but if they have good burgers
and great onion rings,
hey, let's go

anyway I told my son
this sordid story
one night as we were driving
to the post office
and drove by
said Strip club
which I didn't know was on that street

so he goes to work in another town
for a few days
and when he returned
he had a gift for me
a black
long-sleeved t-shirt
that had pink lettering
that said

Support your local performing arts
and had a silhouette
of a dancer on a pole

yeah it was funny
but I don't think I will
be wearing it anywhere
anytime soon

unless I get a really good
recommendation
for how good the burgers are
at Babes, the Strip Club

When It Rains, It Pours

2007-06-30T12:34:00.001-05:00

Waking up slowly

and looking at the clock

she noticed that the time

was much later than she usually

stirred

As she turned toward

the window

she realized

part of the reason

was the dark sky outside

She had plans today

that involved a long drive

and knew it was going to be

a longer drive

due to the weather

but there was no better weather

for the plans she had when she

arrived at her destination

He had called several times

in the last week

with a cheerful voice

she had missed hearing

in such a great while

and she anticipated having a great day

and was preparing for it

early

she got up

took a shower

shaving carefully

in all the right places

creating a perfect V

she hoped he liked it

he was the only one she had ever

shaved for

and he always commented on it

even though he had never asked her to

shave for him

she had just done it

to spice things up one day

and found out he liked it

She went for a pedicure

and a manicure

and drove home with a smile on her face

the nail polish color was name "naughty nightie pink"

and it was going to match her naughty nightie

perfectly

He called as she was driving

and confirmed their plans...

and she could hear the anticipation in his voice

She dressed carefully matching

her bra and panties

putting on delicious smelling lotion

his favorite scent

she packed a bag of tricks

that he asked her to bring

but she knew he didn't need any help

and she stepped out

into the pouring rain

with her trench coat on

and not a blouse or skirt or pants

underneath

she knew it was a cliche'

but the weather

called for it

and he would love it

He always said

the fewer clothes she wore

the fewer he had to take off her

and she smiled just thinking about it

She drove in the driving rain

and the more it rained

the wetter she became

anticipating seeing him

after so many weeks away

She called when she was close

and he said the door would be open

she drove up the drive

hopped out

and ran up to the door

as she stepped inside

he was standing there

in his starched shirt

Wranglers

boots

and was just taking his hat off

The smile spread across his face

and hers too

they hugged and hugged

and he finally said

he needed a quick shower

did she want to join him

and she replied she would be

happy to, if that is what he wanted

because today was all about him

she opened the trench coat

and his face lit up

and he led her to the shower

they played

they laughed

they washed each other

and in the exchange of

getting clean

his penis stood at attention

as if asking her to

take it in her hand

and help him have some fun

so she slid down the side of the shower

and took him in her mouth

holding onto his dick in one hand

and carressing his butt and thigh

with the other

the warm water streaming down his body

with his arms against the wall

she pleasured him

by licking and sucking

her head and hands going up and down

and him moaning with great pleasure

it had been so long

it didn't take him but a few minutes

to explode in her mouth

and crying out loud in ecstasy

she looked up and smiled

and he washed her face

and lavished her with kisses as she stood up

they stepped out of the shower

and he walked into the bedroom

she dryed off and

wrapped a towel around her head

and another one around her body

and walked out into the bedroom

The kingsized bed

had been impeccably made

but he had already pulled down the covers

and the pillows seemed to be

strategically placed

he was standing beside the bed

as she climbed on the bed

and was on her knees facing him

and asked

was there are special reason

these pillows were placed this way?

and he laughed

and she loved seeing him smile

and he replied

No... but they could be....

and he pulled her closer
and placed her
right on top of one of them
and knelt down in front of her
grabbing her ass and
holding her clit up to his face
he kissed her inner thigh
ran his hands up her back
and back down to her ass
as he flicked his tongue around her clit
teasing her
until she began moaning
then he pushed his face into her clit
and took her into his mouth
using his tongue to excite her
even further
she raised her knees
and used her feet to cause some
leverage
so she could move
up and down
as he ate her pussy
and it had been so long since
she had seen him
that it didn't take her long either
so after her third orgasm
he was summoned to move up
and kiss her
she wanted to feel his dick
inside her
but he had other plans
he moved up alright
but he kept moving up
stradling her chest
he presented his throbbing dick
to her mouth
and watched as she took him
in and out using her tongue
strategically to tease him
and make him want more
he had pinner her hands
so she could only use her mouth
and after the ridge had risen
he retreated
and thrust his penis into her clit
and they moved together
starting slowly
but quickly picking up the pace
until they were going to town
kissing
grabbing his ass
and her tits
looking each other in the eye
and smiling
until his gaze turned to determination
and concentration
and she knew the time was near

until one exploded into ectasy and then
the other
they laughed
they held each other
and she asked

Is it ok if I tell you
how much I have missed you?

NO! he said

Ok, she said, then I won't tell you

and so it goes,
the rest of the day
they romped and rolled
and talked and had a
great rainy day
in bed...

and when it came time to leave
after a shower together again
she told him
that she had made a mistake
she would not walk away again
it would have to be him
to decide when to call
Calf Rope.

And he smiled...

and they both slept like babies that night
and woke up with smiles on their faces

Friday Fantasy is Tomorrow

2007-06-28T11:30:00.000-05:00

I know
it has been a dry spell
but I am still here
and there is a storm brewing
in my mind
I have a great one
to write
at least I think it will be great
and tomorrow
if I don't have a date
or do something with the Muse
I will write it

Stay Tuned

Greetings From Beyond...

2007-04-29T11:51:00.000-05:00

I mean,
you did think I had fallen off the earth
didn't you?

It is almost like I have

or maybe it is just that I really want to

I am not sure

in fact

right now I am not sure of anything

except

this

for weeks upon weeks

possibly 6 weeks or
possibly more

I have been craving
a
HOT FUDGE Sundae

I had the taste
texture
vision
of a delectable
delight of great ice cream
like homemade vanilla
not DQ soft serve imitation ice cream

but the really good stuff

topped with piping hot fudge
which my friends will tell me
isn't really hot
nuts
a little whip cream
and a cherry to top it off

and this time
instead of smearing it all over
some man's body and
deliciously devouring every drop
(in my mind he has a hot body,
hence melted ice cream and even hotter fudge...lol)

I wanted it out of a cup, or bowl
and to enjoy every spoonful
as if it were delectable
chocolate sex
because we all know
there is nothing better than sex
but sometimes
you crave for more...

Last night,
it finally came to a climax
I drove to the ice cream shop
and ordered
not only the hot fudge sundae
but the one
with the chocolate fudge brownie
as well

would you like that heated? she asked

of course...

and I ate it in the car,

and somehow
it wasn't as good as I had imagined it to be
and even though
the hot fudge was
just as I had imagined
the thrill was gone
and I didn't dream
I would be so disappointed

but I was

and I felt yucky
very yucky

and I drove home
to sit and read
and ponder

how that hot fudge sundae
was a portal
to my realistic view
of my so called life...

more to come...
stay tuned...

Dreams

2007-01-27T10:32:00.000-06:00

I have been sleeping better
Better than? you ask

Better than I have in years

I don't know if it is the new mattress
or
if I am just to the point
that my sleep is more important to me
than most other things

but I have started dreaming again
ok
maybe I always have
but I am remembering them
or am conscious of them while I am having them

and I like that
I like waking up and trying to figure out
what they meant.

I also like who is in them
at least of late

*she smiles

and no, I am not ready to say who

why jinx my good dreams?

I am just glad to have them back.

Perhaps a fantasy writing or two will come of it...

I am off to enjoy the sun while it is shining and
it is warm.

New Beginnings

2007-01-02T10:47:00.000-06:00

She sat in her room
in the middle of the bed
with a small plate
of cheese and crackers
and ham

The tv was on
but all the shows were re-runs
and
Dick Clark's Rocking New Year's Eve
just wasn't the same without Dick
so she flipped to a cable station

then she decided to forego
the watching of mindless television
when her dinner was done
and she turned it off
cleaned up her picnic
and turned to the book
she hadn't finished yet

She read until she went to sleep
and sometime in the night
she woke up
and turned off the light.

She wondered if anyone had called
to wish her a Happy New Year
even though she had the phone
turned to silent

There were two missed calls
both from the same person
who is a man
but one she and the muse
visit with when they go
to their favorite bar

they always try to get him to go dancing
with them
and he doesn't ever show up

He didn't leave a message

which was fine

She goes back to sleep
and wakes up with the sun
shining in the windows
and grabs her book
and reads until it's done

She gets up
gets dressed
and cleans up her room
before descending the stairs

to prepare a New Year's Day meal
for the Muse

Blackeyed Peas are said to bring
good luck and prosperity
and who would dare
to tempt the fates
by not indulging in a tradition
of such

The meal was great
the company better
and there was no man
in the picture

It was different
but not necessarily worse

Just different

and a good beginning
to a new life.

Happy New Year one and all.

Happy Birthday .... Friday Fantasy

2006-12-29T11:27:00.000-06:00

Background:

Once during a discussion
about sex
and whether to ever measure
it's "greatness"
she told him
her favorite addage
"sex is like pizza...
even when it is bad
it is GOOD"

so their private joke
was
"I am sure craving
some PIZZA"

Now on to the Birthday fantasy

She had pondered for days
what to get him
for his birthday

they hadn't really known
each other very long

he had the monetary ability
and enough friends
and family
to get any and every thing
he would want for his birthday

She was of meager means
and couldn't afford
a lavish gift
but wanted something
that would stand out
in a sea of good gifts.

She had teased him
of joining her for a long walk
a long brisk walk
each day
that she had taken up
as her exercise regimen

and even though he was in good shape
she teased that if he could make
the long trek
and return without huffing and puffing
she would gladly
engage in any sexual activity he would like

What a great incentive
to walk
and get into even better shape

so the thought finally came
Pizza and a pedometer

what a great gift
and even though others might be
there when he opened it
they wouldn't see
the hidden meaning
of either item

She didn't have time
with the hectic schedule
she had
so she ordered the pedometer
online and had it shipped overnight
and not your run of the mill pedometer
where it was simply the thought
but a good one
with great reviews

then she stopped at the local pizza place
purchased a gift card
good for a pizza night out
and asked the clerk
for a large
Pizza Box

She giggled all the way home
and then she sat down
taped the pedometer
in the middle of the box
and printed discount pizza coupons
off the internet
she esp. liked the one
that said
2 toppings for one low price
and 2 pizzas for the price of one

and she carefully taped the coupons
and peppermints she picked up
on her way out of the pizza place
in the box around the pedometer

she closed the box and couldn't wait
to see the look on his face
when he opened it.
She giggled with delight

The evening came
they were going to a music venue
of his choice
and with his friends
but they had a few minutes
to spare before they left.

He picked her up at her place
but she insisted they take her car
so she could drive him home afterwards
if he had too much to drink.

She had the gift in the back
where he couldn't see it.

She was esp. giddy
thinking of what she had in store for him

They arrived
the music was great
the friends were all there

they sang and laughed
and cut up with him
as the center of attention

she stood back and watched
thinking he was such a great guy
and that she hoped things finally
went somewhere with this one

he had been good to her
in the short time
they had known each other

he was honest
told her great things
she liked hearing
he showed his heart
and his ability to truly care
and he was
great in bed.
Willing to please her
before taking his own needs
into consideration

She was looking forward
to seeing to his needs tonight

She had picked up some
"toppings" at the store
to add some fun to their lovemaking
and to go with the pizza coupons

The band stopped playing
and she asked if he would like
to step out to the car
to kiss and talk alone a minute

She had every intention of
giving him his gift

So they walked to the car
and she turned to him
put her hands on his face
caressing him
and looking deep into his eyes
" You are really something"
she whispered
as she kissed him
"I am really glad
we met"
and she hugged him tight

"Oh wait, what is that in the back of the car?"
she teased
as she opened the door
and retrieved the pizza box
and handed it to him...

He opened it
and laughed
his great hearty laugh

"I am ready for pizza now!"
He laughed
grabbing her hand and
showing her his hard dick
in his pants
She laughed
"Well, let's see what we can do
about that pizza order sir"

"Would you like the meat lovers
or the Supreme?"

"Meat Lovers" he laughs

She moves him around
to the back of car
in the dark parking lot
As she kisses him
deep killer kisses

she un-does his belt,
the button fly
and unzips his pants
She finds his hard
throbbing dick already
seeping through his boxers
She finds the open fly
and pulls him from the
tight confines

He moans with delight
and she moves down
taking him into her mouth
asn she carresses with one hand
and plays with his butt
with the other

He leans back with his hands on the car
watching her
with a great satisfaction

Her lips move back and forth
while her tongue swirls around
his swollen penis
she feels the ridge tighten
and she knows he is about
to explode and is trying
to wait as long as he can

She looks up just as he
tries to speak to warn her
that he is almost ready
to explode in her mouth

But he can't speak,
his words aren't there
just his ecstasy
and then a rush
of him fills her mouth
and she leans back
as he gasps and regains
some composure
and she smiles
up at him,
and he lifts her up and holds her close
and kisses her again...

"Happy Birthday sir,
How was your pizza?" She teases

"Best damn pizza I ever had"
he responds

"Now let's go do some dancing."
She states as he zips up
and she wipes her mouth

and they return to the party
and as they are dancing
an hour or so later

she whispers into his ear

"When ever you are ready
I have some "extra toppings"
at home, for your pizza
and mine too"

and he grabs her hand
and they are gone

the friends look around
later and wonder where
he disappeard to....

but by that time
there is mint flavored whip cream
on her nipples and he is moving down
to apply and happily eat
her until she begs him
to get the meat topping out
which is once again
stiff enough to drill a nail
into a 2x4

and he laughs
and she laughs
and they make great love
until they collapse
and then she asks

"so how many miles was
that on your
pedometer?"

"I don't know, but
the pizza was great"
and I can't wait to walk it off

so that I can have some more
when I get back..... "

Well Hello Sunshine ... A Friday Fantasy on Sunday

2006-12-17T13:51:00.000-06:00

It is about time I felt the desire to write one isn't it?

There may be graphic language then again, there may not
She had been to breakfast with a friend
and afterward
as she walked to her car
she took out her cell phone
and noticed she had missed a call
from him

"I called you at 10 and you didn't answer."
"You did? I didn't have a message..."
"I didn't leave one"
"Well, leave me a message when you call, and then I will know you called and get to hear your voice too."
"You know I am a man of few words."
"I know, but the words you do share are great."

She noticed she had a voicemail as well.
She smiled
She thought it had to be him, so she listened
and found
he would be gone by the time she heard the message
so she couldn't return the call

he was sitting in a deer blind somewhere
so he could cook steaks for her
when he downed a doe or a buck

His message said he would call back
later that day or the first of the week
She knew his schedule
she knew it was unlikely she would hear from him
before Monday morning
and that was ok
even though
she had seen him on Thursday
They had spent the afternoon
talking and playing
both with greater stress in their lives than usual

She was trying to date
it wasn't going as she would like
and it was feast or famine
and right nowit was famine
the last one had just made his exit

So the great deer hunter said
"Fuck him, the big fat fuck, he didn't know what he had.."
and she smiled
even though she knew
it was said just to make her feel better
it worked
and she thought of this as she hung up the phone
after hearing his message
She also thought
of how he had given her a Christmas gift she hadn't expected
and it was
a power tool
a new drill
she had mentioned wanting one
and she laughed
it was hilarious to her
that it was one of the best gifts anyone had thought of for her
and it was a power tool
They had spent a great day
among many great days spent together
but somehow this time
despite they were both under a great deal of stress
was even better
than usual

His job wasn't going well
he had been inquiring
about other jobs
and was under more stress than most of the time
talking,
laughing,
sharing a lively libation
and some great flirtatious acts of intimacy

and as she listened to the message
she remembered fondly
the last two years
of stolen days
with a man who had treated her
with respect
love
and caring
even though
there had never been
any strings attached

Her day went on

She severed any remaining ties
regardless of how thin they were
to two men she had been seeing
off and on
and drove
by herself
to a Holiday office party

as she was driving
through the neighborhood
looking for a number on her supervisor's house
Her phone rang
she looked at the phone
It was him
She answered in a happy voice
although she was anything but happy
to be going to a party
by herself
when everyone had been asking
about whether she was bringing
the fellow she had talked so fondly about the last few weeks
she didn't have the strength to tell them
he had walked away
She said
"Hello!"

and he laughed and said
"Well Hello Sunshine..."

and she suddenly had a smile
and the strength to go to the party
and something to look forward to

while they talked about drills
and Christmas
and the hunting of deer
he said
"I want to see that drill
next time I come to see you"
and she knew
she knew he meant he would come to see her
for her birthday
which is
what she told him was what she wanted for Christmas

A homecooked Steak Dinner
Music and Dancing
Like when they met on her birthday two years ago
and a night spent together

Now that is a fantasy
and she thinks
she thinks it will come true
after all,
she gave him a gift card
to the huge new fishing/hunting store,
and he will have to find a way
to come to town to spend it.

THE END

Postscript: Some fantasies don't have anything to do with graphic sex

Life's a Bitch and so am I

2006-12-12T21:07:00.000-06:00

Yeah, I know
it has been awhile.
but here I am
I am back
and as my friend
dear Friend
Walker
has said today
or actually a day or so
after the date on this post
You should get
at least as much out of a relationship
as you put into it
it is a 50/50 thing
well my friend
I put in much more than 50
and I get
much less back
In a short week
very short week
I have been stood up
I have been lied to
I have been asked to put my heart on hold
and I cannot just freeze my heart
but as much as I would like to
I don't find much reason to
and so my actions from here on out
may cause that to be no longer as well
because I refuse to "not Live"
for an undisclosed amount of time
while someone collects themselves
and reaches out
when they have done the worst as far as I am concerned
stood me up
and lied to me about it

sad thing is
I knew it was going to occur
and yet I couldn't do anything about it
except let the day pass
and it has

I have told someone very dear to my heart
that I never wanted to hear from him again
for the pain he caused me
and the fear of others
that I would return to him and more pain
to go along with the pain he originally caused

I have accepted someone back into my life
Mr. Turnaround has asked to see me
and I am going to
although I think it won't ever turn into anything
except an occasional evening
of pure animal attraction and playfulness

and if I could be a bigger bitch
I am probably one today
maybe not bitch
but harder, more bitter, more guarded
yes,
that is what the actions
of Mr. Sullivan have caused
and he

well he is just thankful
that I am not spiteful
and I am not
I wish him well

and he says he will return
but I don't believe it

we all know
and if you didn't,
you do now

that I have a huge issue
with people "leaving"
or
"exiting"
my life
and it pretty much makes me

"DONE" with them
but here
here we are all friends
and I am thankful for those
who check in to see what is going on with me

I like coming over and seeing you too
until next time

try to get some xmas shopping done..

Wordless Wednesday

2006-10-31T17:17:00.000-06:00

Wordless Wednesday

2006-10-25T02:00:00.000-05:00

Blizzard of Beauty

2006-10-16T16:42:00.000-05:00

Fantasy

2006-10-14T07:31:00.000-05:00

Blizzard White Roses

in a long-stemmed
hand blown vase
of purple, gold and green hues

with wispy deep blue accent baby's breath

stood proudly on the table

it was such an elegant arrangement
the rest of the room appeared
much too out of place
for such greatness and beauty

but she didn't care
she loved gazing on the
perfection of God's work
and their pureness glowing through

She thought of all the different
moments in her life that were
so near perfection
that it was as if God was giving her snipits
of what heaven would be like
when she arrived

One weekend when she spent 3 blissful days
of youth
with a man she fell in love with instantly
They danced, they ate, they swam
he held her in his arms as if
her were carrying her to bed
but they were in the water
and he kissed her endlessly

It was a love upon first sight
young and unencumbered
with the questions she would ask herself years later
when met with the same emotions
upon meeting another intriguing and handsomely tall man

but alas, he was leaving for Japan
and she never saw him again,
even though she wrote him a letter every day
for over 6 months and he wrote her the same
but then he met someone else
and she was ...
well that isn't what this post is about

Then the night she spent with a man
she hardly knew, kissing for hours on her couch
with him not making another move
but simply enjoying kissing for hours
and talking and laughing

eventually, it did lead to more,
but not anytime soon.
Her favorite day, out of two years with him,
was the day they hiked at Palo Duro Canyon
and he was in such awe of God's creation
of erosion
animated and elated
she watched as he showed a part of him
that she had never seen
his vulnerability and true caring for her
she cried that night, after he was asleep
they were closer than they had ever been...
but all good things must come to an end
and she let him go
knowing it wasn't to be

Another was a weekend in a statepark
with a man she will always love and care about
It rained
They got lost on a hike
It was unbearably hot
and yet
they laughed, they cooked, they made love constantly
until she could hardly walk
and late at night
he surprised her with rose petals
candles, a portable fan, a dragon tattoo, among other things
and a trip into town for ice cream

the next morning he cooked her breakfast by the water
as the sun was rising
and she still enjoys looking at those pictures
but her favorite quote from him
was
Not enough wine
Not enough time
Not enough you

On her 42nd birthday
she went out
to go dancing
she wanted to see
if she still could after she had knee surgery
and things hadn't been quite right since
and she found a wonderful dance partner
who she explained to
that she wasn't 42,
she was two 21 year olds in one
and they enjoyed their time together
and now
they still tango
on Sunday afternoons
whenever they can
even though he lives too far away
he is better to her
than any man has ever been
and yet
he can never be truly hers
and they both know it
but they enjoy the time they do have together
and she is glad he is in her life

and then there was the man
who sang to her
making her blush
holding her hand
taking the lead but not brazenly
he talked big
and she liked what she heard
and many of those memories still hurt
but the quote
the quote she will never forget
is
I am not calling because I am needy
I am calling
because I want you to know
you have the most beautiful eyes
and I want you to know
I love you so very much

and it still brings tears to her eyes when she hears it
in her head

but the most recent one
that brought her a smile
was a new man
kissing her for hours on end
as they sat on her couch
with candles burning
and Norah Jones playing in the background

She even smiled as they were kissing
because for so long
she had wanted to hear that particular song
while with a man
in a romantic setting
and for years
it didn't come true

so as she stared
as the memories
were flooding over her
the white roses
appeared in her sights again
and the visions of the past
faded away

there were tears falling down her face
but she smiled and knew
so many good things have come
and gone
she shouldn't be sad
she should be glad for all she has had
however fleeting it may be.

Friday Fantasy On Sunday

2006-10-07T08:12:00.000-05:00

I have one about to come true on Saturday, so I am not writing til it is done...

and here it is

She drove home
smiling from ear to ear

for nearly two years
she has been planting a seed
in the ear
of a man
she holds dear in many ways

she has expressed
her desire
to have an evening
like the one
hence they met

with dancing
good food
and great fun
and

an entire night together in bed

and suddenly
out of the clear blue
he asked her one day

after
of course
she had stopped expressing her desire
for quite some time

if he invited a friend to join him
for a trip to the Alamo City
could she find a friend to ask along?

She grinned
of course she had a friend
but no guarantees of
what would transpire between
said friends

and on Saturday
it came to pass
he showed up early
surprised her as she was cooking

there were T-bone steaks
baked potato casserole
fresh green beans
and peach cobbler for dessert

The boys from down south
started the fire
and one of them
didn't need to do much to get
my fire started

they talked
they laughed
they teased a bit
and the dinner
the dinner was delectable
they drove to their
favorite hangout

The Big V

and danced and laughed and
met the locals

and she heard
from more than one
how handsome he was

and she knew
she knew she could pick the handsome ones

but it was good to hear
and it made her smile

yeah he is

and she took him home
lead him to the bedroom

after he said
we need to just
go in that room
lock the door
and have a great night

and as far as our
friends go
we have given it
our best shot
what happens now
is up to them.

and they did

and when they get behind closed doors
and she lets her hair hang down
and she makes glad that he's a man
because no one knows what goes on behind closed doors

but when she opened the door
she had a smile
from one ear to the other
and he did too

and when they parted after breakfast

he said

I wish we were in a motel room
in "small town" Texas
doing what we did all night

and she smiled

she hadn't
gotten to spend
an entire night with him
or have so many orgasms in one night
or hear him say
something so wonderful

and she had been dreaming about it
for nearly two years

maybe it will be a good deer season.

It is a Personal Choice

2006-10-07T07:58:00.000-05:00

Leilani,

The best thing that was said to me
was said by the closest friend I have right now
and she told me

It is his personal choice
If he was truthful about his feelings toward you
Then he is in a living hell

If he lied about how he felt
then he gets the life he deserves
which is also probably hell on earth

as far as you sounding full of yourself
I don't agree
you have many great things going for you
you just happened to find a man
that even though things could have been great
he didn't bother to discuss it with you
and whatever did make him
make the choices he made
you weren't the biggest priority
and that
my dear
you don't want.

I could make the same list
of all the great things about me

how that helps me
is to know that I value myself
enough to not be treated so badly
and put up with it forever

and it shows me
that I want to find a man
who thinks I am as great
or greater than I think I am myself

and I want to do the same for him...

there is a great prospect
all my friends are teasing me
about how giddy I am over him
I smile every few minutes
and remind them I have a date
with him Monday
and I can't wait to hear from him
each day
so we will see

Cautiously optimistic
once again

but this time
this time there are no nagging questions
about whether I am making the right choice
in pursuing him
and previously
I should have seen the writing on the wall
and that is why I questioned it
and I should have listened to my intuition

so this time I am
it is telling me
to GO FOR IT

and I am

glad you aren't wounded too badly
and are back in the saddle again soon.

Sometimes

2006-10-01T21:21:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I don't like being right.

(I know it is hard to believe, but
it is truly heartfelt and true)

I am so sorry...

I wish things had turned out
the way you thought they should

of course
we all have "ways"
we wish things would go
and sometimes they do
and sometimes they don't

you know,

things didn't turn out the way
I thought they should either

many many times in my life
but some (esp. the last time) were much harder
than others to accept.

My prayers are with you, always.

Friday Fantasy

2006-09-29T21:49:00.000-05:00

This post has to have the story
behind the story

Earlier this week
I had a date

I know
hard to believe
but I did

and it was an exceptional date

but when I arrived home
I found a firetruck
in front of my apartment complex

So I drove in and parked
and walked up to find out what was going on
but by then
the truck was gone

and I had no clue what had transpired

so I came home and went straight to bed

around 10:30
the landlord
(new one, hadn't seen him yet)
was beating on my front door
and th only way I would have known it
is if my windows were open and
they were
so I peeked out
yelled for him to step out and look up
and he proceeded to ask me
if I had smelled anything funny this evening

and I said no
but I did come home late

(and I am thinking
apparently " one " of my neighbors
had complained of a smoke odor
and called the fire station. )

and he says that one of the neighbors
had called the fire dept.

Well I only have one neighbor
I reply
but he argues that I have many
and starts pointing at the other buildings

well only one of them lives right next door to me
I retort (you stupid SOB who woke me up)

so I explain that NO
I haven't smelled any odors
that would warrant a fire truck to visit
and would he please make sure
that he woke up all the other neighbors
except for the ones that
stomp, yell, holler, and generally make noise
all night
he can ask them to be quiet...

you don't wake me up for shit like this

now, for sex, you can wake me up for that any time
but I wouldn't tell him that
he is not my type
to put it nicely

the next day, I do, indeed
learn from my next door neighbor
that she smelled smoke
and called
she, of course,
opened all her windows
before they arrived and
the smoke had dissipated

hmmmm

so my intuition is still working

hmmmm

anyway on to the fantasy...

She drove home after an evening
out on the town
Her date was cordial enough
and the kisses were pretty good
for first kisses

As she rounded the corner
there were flashing lights
and as she neared
she recognized a fire truck

It was sitting right in front of her
apartment complex
She slowed to see if there was a fire
she couldn't discern any foul play
and turned into her drive way
and parked in her usual spot.
She started walking
to the front of the complex
to find out what was going on
and there
by the pool
were all the firemen
taking off their gear
down to their skivvies
and jumping in the pool
and above the pool
was a banner
that said
"Welcome Home Bennu"
and behind the pool area
there were other firemen
setting off fireworks
and two more
with hoses ready
in case there was actually a fire

She was stunned
she laughed and then she heard
a voice behind her

"We have missed you"

she turned around to find him
sitting on her porch
wearing his board shorts
with big flowers on them
she hadn't seen him in years
but instantly
all the old sentiment returned
and she was thrilled
to throw her arms around him
and hug him tight

"I have missed you too... terribly"
and he picked her up and carried her to the pool
They all stood around the edge
and jumped in together

They played volleyball
under the light of the moon

watched the fireworks
while kissing in the pool
and the firemen cooked bbq
that was delicious cabrito
and wild boar

when the evening was over
the firemen picked every thing up
and he walked her home,
taking her in his arms
and asking if she still felt the same
as he did
and she answered
by taking his hand
and leading him into the house
to continue their own fireworks show.

(really was a dream I had, that same night)

Wordless Wednesday- As I drove to the Muse's House, This was my View

2006-09-26T22:02:00.000-05:00

Friday Fantasy

2006-09-23T09:42:00.000-05:00

She had been plotting
planning, thinking about him for weeks.

She knew he couldn't see her for at least a month,
due to other commitments.

He had professed his love
of boxer shorts with a button on the fly

She had a friend who worked for Polo
and if they could be found, she would find them

but she didn't tell him she was looking for them

The last time she wore a sexy bra
he had expressed his desire
that she wear none

So she had a t-shirt he had given her
hanging up in the closet,
waiting for the day
she could wear it
and go commando

One afternoon,
she had had a very hard day
with not much explanation of why
the morning was hectic

but it went well,
so why didn't she feel good?
she wasn't sure

Her answer was to get some flowers for herself
to cheer her when she gazed upon
their natural beauty
and one of her good friends
delivered them to her in the afternoon

they helped some
but at 8 something that evening
her phone rang
it was him
he had been out with friends
was on his way home
and thinking of her

she flippantly asked
if he wanted to play hooky
the next day
and he laughed

yeah, that was a good idea
so she took an afternoon
and drove to meet him

she donned the t-shirt
and a pair of capri pants
with no lingerie underneath

Her anxiousness led her
to the rendevous
earlier than usual
so she found him walking out
to get some ice
so she had some time

to put the plan in place
she put some things in the bathroom
then beside the bed
and mixed herself a drink
as he arrived with the ice in hand

they sat and talked
catching up
as she rubbed his feet
and he grinned
enjoying every minute of it

When he said
she was going to put him
to sleep if she kept that up,
she stopped
and stood up
walked to him
started unbuttoning his shirt
and said
she had no intention
of putting him to sleep.

He reached up to her
and finally realized
she had worn the shirt
and done what he said
and he
laughed

so you do listen do you?
he teased

she took him by the hands
stood him up
and undressed him
enjoying every minute
of seeing his tan
against the
starched shirt
the blue jeans
and her white t-shirt
he fondled her as she worked
thoroughly distracting her

she led him to the bathroom
turned on the water
and the shower
and led him in

she lathered him up and
he asked for his turn
which she loved
and handed over the soap
and body ball

she rubbed her body against
his in a slow rhythm
and he was becoming quite aroused
and suggested they return to the bed

she declined
explaining she wasn't done with him
yet in the water
so she turned her back to him
and he wrapped her in his arms
fondling her and kissing her neck

and the more aroused he became
the further over she bent
until he was too excited
to do anything
but sneak up behind her
and slip his dick in her pussy

She reached for the shower
wall to steady herself
and felt him in her fully
loving every minute of it
as they pulsated back and forth
with the water rushing over their bodies
they melted together
until he exploded inside her
gasping and moaning
with great pleasure

as he retreated
she moaned a little disappointed moan
she didn't want him to leave
quite so soon
so he turned her around
sucking, fondling
her nipples
which were so glad to see him
they were standing at attention

Then he announced
now we need to retreat to the bed
so I can show you how glad I am to see you
and you can lay back and enjoy

and so he did
over
and
over
and over.....

Afternoon delight
there is nothing better she thought
hours later as she drove home
after watching him
model the boxer shorts
she gave him for his birthday
and he was so thrilled to have them
his face showed it
in the grin and the way he danced around
in each pair
and

she knew
she knew it was a great day
with a great man

and there aren't very many in a lifetime
so it is important to enjoy each one

The Last Day

2006-09-22T06:16:00.000-05:00

One season ends
Another begins

I stand
with my hands
at my side

the tears rolling down
to my feet
on the ground

heart broken
not a word spoken

for an entire season
I cannot reason

why

but I am still standing
the tears will dry
my heart is mending
I will not lie

I wish it were different
and yet
I know it was not meant
so I am going to let

you go.
Goodbye

Afternoon Delight

2006-09-21T11:52:00.000-05:00

Yeah he is

Yeah I am

all afternoon

just can't say who

he asked me not to

That's what I'm talkin' 'bout...

and what does muse have to say

since she is still having a dry spell?

"That shit ain't right!"

ummmmm

it's good for me

You will have the keeper of the Beers soon...

Have a great afternoon everyone

I am going to get a smile
plastered on my face for a few days

Harry Potter Personality Test

2006-09-20T19:28:00.000-05:00

Harry Potter Personality Quiz by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

Wordless Wednesday....what I did last weekend

2006-09-20T06:22:00.000-05:00

Life's A Beach or..... Interesting Men

2006-09-18T20:13:00.000-05:00

Sitting by the water
enjoying the waves
crashing on the beach

The sun on my face
Sand beneath my feet
Wind in my hair

It was great

Then the muse
waved at some guys
as they drove by
and they stopped
Stephen with a p
and Kenny

That was interesting

Then we went dancing
and there were several
interesting men

Old men, I mean, at least 60
dancing with much, much, younger
women (much younger than me)

All good dancers though
maybe that was it

Then there was Craig
the fisherman
who wanted us to join him
at Laguna Madre' at 7 am
and the Muse would have
but somehow, someway
he didn't call
(I think his wife thought it best he didn't take us fishing)
yeah, he was married and introduced us to her
that was

To say the least

Interesting

Then there was Greg
Younger
Cute
great smile
great dancer, lived near me
but was at the coast

then after 3 dances
and two fabulous hugs
told me he was married

that's ok, I responded
I am not looking
Just wanting to dance

Sam, the man of dark chocolate
in a cowboy bar
in a town where
people are pretty prejudice

I danced with him once

that was interesting

Then there was the cowboy
who walked the muse
to the car

I was a bit worried
but she sent him packing
and that

well
considering
the dry spell we are both having

That was Interesting

But we had a great time
We relaxed
laughed and laughed
and came up with some new ideas to contemplate
and got a little pinker

It was great
and
it was interesting...

and the men were too...

Friday Fantasy

2006-09-15T17:40:00.000-05:00

She sat on her porch
as the sun set
behind the house across the street

Her thoughts drifted
to other sunsets she had watched

and she could envision
the Grand Canyon
the shades of scarlet
and chocolate
that the exposed layers of the earth
and the glistening rays of the sun
spun in splendor

as she and the man
of her dreams
sat on a wall
right on the rim
of the canyon
holding hands

An eagle had flown by
as they gazed
toward the west

he squeezed her hand

he had dreamt this vision once
but he didn't think it would
come to pass

he thought she would not be the one
next to him...
and she...

she thought she had lost him to another...

the night before
they had made love like teenagers
seasoned with all they had
learned about pleasing one another

she had started by wearing nothing more than a
t-shirt
and giving him a squirt gun
and having him
wear only white boxer shorts
they ran around the yard
squirting each other
until they were both aroused
and it was no secret
because it all showed
under their clothing

Her nipples were perky,
sticking up
and dark,
begging for his mouth to be on them

her bush was clearly not
just wet from the water

when she ran
her breasts bounced up and down
and his dick
got hard right in front of her eyes
as she squirted
him with water
facing him with her own version
of a wet t-shirt contest

and in his eyes
she was clearly the winner...

they were laughing
kissing
teasing
biting lips
and grabbing ass

when the guns were empty
their hands were full
of each other

she couldn't get his
boxers off quick enough
and he was pulling on her shirt
trying to rip it off
rather than
unlock their lips from one another

they stumbled backwards
into the room
falling quickly to the bed

she stradled him...
while kissing and caressing
she slowly moved down
his body

her long hair draping over his chest
at first,
and she tugged
on his nipples
with her teeth

then she kissed the line
down his belly
to his throbbing dick
she took it in her hand
and caressed it carefully
as she licked up
and down the shaft

The ridge was at high mast
and she took him into her mouth
and he fucked her face
watching her head go
up and down
she could feel his cum
rising
and he begged her to stop
because he didn't want things to end early

she carressed his balls with her other hand
and
then the earth shattering
explosion came
and so did he
and she relished every drop
and swallowed.

She looked up at him
and smiled
at the smile on his face

"well now you have gone and done it." he crows

"Yeah I did" she laughs
"and so did you! But I am not done...

and neither are you."

They sit and talk about
whatever came to mind
and erroneous as it was

the time passed

with him leaned against the headboard
and her next to him but facing him
with her feet on the top of the headboard.

He reaches over
and slides his hand inside her thigh

and as they talk
he starts to play
with her pussy

she moves her legs apart and smiles at him...

"Told you so...." she laughs

and he does too

"you like that?" he asks

"ummm... what do you think? " she asks

he laughs,
and begins to finger fuck her
and watch her wriggle all over the bed
until she begs him

to let her mount him
which she does
and as she takes him
into her slowly
she can feel his throbbing
dick inside her

and she slowly rocks back and forth
until she is really close to cumming

his hands entwined with hers
their eyes staring into each other
with huge grins...

she starts rocking faster
then she slides down,
wrapping her legs around his
and pounding herself into his pelvis.

She starts crying out louder and louder
and then the earthquake of orgasms climaxes
and she stops so she can feel the spasms throughout
her body and his
and he can feel them too.

And then the sun is behind the house
her thoughts return to
the idea it is dark
and he isn't here
and she misses him.

Barry White by Savage Chickens

2006-09-13T19:59:00.000-05:00

Wordless Wednesday

2006-09-12T20:59:00.000-05:00

Full moon through the trees... looks good on my pc, but not all

Dancing Passionately

2006-09-11T19:20:00.000-05:00

I love to dance...

I have blogged about how I learned to dance
at least Country and Western

the Two step
waltz, Cottoneyed Joe,
among others

I love jitterbug especially

I have rarely had a chance to dance
in the last few years

in fact, before last Saturday night,
it was my birthday two years ago

and that night

well that was the night I met *Mr. Duvall

and he is a fabulous dancer.

Anyway,

the muse and I drove to
the cowboy capital of the world
or at least the one in Texas

and we went dancing at a famous dancehall
with a live band playing

It wasn't a big crowd,
unfortunately,
but

there was a guy that walked over
and asked the muse to dance
and then he asked me to dance
after they danced
(no, she didn't turn him down,
she knows the rule of dancing,
you always dance with the first guy that asks you)

and he was a pretty good dancer

we took turns dancing with him all evening

and then
when the band had played their last set
we left to go home...

I told the muse later

I had a great time
but we wouldn't have had a great time
If Mr. Shaq
had not danced with us.

maybe he and his buddies will be there
in a few weeks when
we go dancing again.

*who called me this morning, and
when I said we had been dancing
and where....
he named every dance hall in that town and
told me the one to go to next time...

maybe he will go with

Dancing, I love it, passionately

and dancing with a great partner, like
Mr. Duvall

Priceless

Friday Fantasy.... of a different sort

2006-09-08T21:45:00.000-05:00

Today, my fantasy is simple...

a vacation,

to a relaxing

and somewhat familiar place,

where I can have a few days
to myself without worrying about

students and their lack of following directions
lesson planning, bitches across the hall,
deadlines, paperwork, meetings,
behavior issues, or .... anything else.

I am in the planning stages...

will let you know if this fantasy materializes...

I am thinking Spa in New Mexico
Hot Springs,
Mud Baths
cool nights
mountain air...

Wordless Wednesday

2006-09-06T06:33:00.000-05:00

Friday Fantasy

2006-09-01T00:18:00.000-05:00

She walked in from a long day at work
The house was hot, so she turned on the ac
She checked the mail
there was a letter
with no return address
she thought she knew the handwriting
but she didn't dare think it was
who she thought it was

She opened the envelope
It was an invitation to a rendevous
and the handwriting was unmistakable
even though there was no signature

It was a familiar place
and she wanted to go
but she knew
she would cry if she did

so she didn't

in a few days
another one came

this time the place had changed
to one more neutral
and where there would be other distractions
like a great live band
low lights
and cocktails
by the light of the moon
in another language

She decided she would go
The desire to see him was too great

She picked out a new outfit
that she had purchased for a special occasion
flowing white skirt
with a wide band of black at the bottom
and a low cut black peasant blouse
with a black lace push up bra
and black patent high heels

She wore the perfume
he loved to have her rub on his neck after being with her

She walked into the dimly lit lounge
and sat at the bar
looking around very little
He approached her soon after,
from a table where he had been sitting

and asked her to join him
which she did

They hugged, said hello
talked for a bit
and then the band began

The jazz was incredible
They danced the first real dance between the two of them
and smiles were plastered on both of their faces

It was if they were made for each other
The gait, the steps, how in tune they were
with each other
and they couldn't escape it

She asked, after several dances,
if he would like to step outside
for a breath of fresh air

and he agreed, thinking it would be a good chance to kiss her

sure enough
as soon as they were outside
he grabbed her around the waist
pulling her to him
kissing her like they had been together always

She melted in his arms
his strength, self confidence, and
kisses that brought her to her knees each and every time

He leaned her back over the hood of the car
and lifted her dress to find she had
stockings with a garter on, and no panties
She was dripping wet from his kisses
and he enjoyed playing with her
while kissing her

He wanted to tease her
to make her want him so badly that she would beg him
to take her
right there
right then

but she had her own ideas

she slipped her hand down the front of his dress pants
and grabbed his cock
stroking it up and down
until it was spilling over the edge of his jeans
The pressure was too great
he was moaning
and she was undoing his pants

and he couldn't get out of them fast enough

then she felt it slip from her hand

and she saw something on the floor

it was a notice

that a new club was opening near her

Luna

and they had great live bands

and she hoped she would find someone there

that made her feel the way he made her feel

She wasn't sure she would ever find it again
but even if she didn't

She would always remember the good times

fondly.

Wordless Wednesday

2006-08-30T05:04:00.000-05:00

Open Window by Matisse

Icky Sticky Tricky Trust?

2006-08-29T21:18:00.000-05:00

Hee Hee Hee

I won't look
if you don't look

ok, I won't look
if you won't look

but both look
when the other is
not looking

Trust is such a tricky thing
isn't it?

SATURDA*Y

2006-08-27T11:03:00.000-05:00

Sad
Antsy
Tearful
Uneasy
Restless
Distressed
Angry
whY?

Friday Fantasy

2006-08-25T06:09:00.000-05:00

It was all she could think about all day
She couldn't wait to get home
where it was cool and comfy
and enjoy the decadence
of the evening she had planned

The minute she walked in the door
She was met with temptation
Her enthusiasm was intense
The glint in her eye
revealed her true feelings
She couldn't hide her excitement
On the couch
she sat
ready to enjoy a few minutes
of pure ecstasy
where she was being tempted
to partake in
a moment of Nirvana

Her shoes off

the music on

She took it in her hands

without being coaxed

Her mouth could not
stay away any longer

Her tongue

swirling around

and around

as she caressed it with her hand

enjoying every second

moving it in and out

sucking lightly

moaning with pleasure

and finally
letting the sweet substance
melt on her tongue

The best things in life take but a moment
to enjoy

but sometimes it takes a long time to recover

She knew this was one of those moments

it was gone much sooner than she would have liked

she even used her tongue

in ways she never thought she would

to savor the last bits of a delightful experience

but it wouldn't reach

the bottom
of the
Chocolate Mousse
she bought
at Whole Foods

but had not eaten
with Mr. Beamer
on Tuesday.

But the smile on her face
at the thought of the
chocolate concoction would last a few days
while she walked in the evening to work off
the calories.

Wordless Wednesday

2006-08-23T05:58:00.000-05:00

Friday Fantasy

2006-08-18T22:13:00.000-05:00

She heard a motor running right outside the door
She got up to see what it was
It was late,
so it could have been
any of her neighbors
but none of them
had a motorcycle

She looked out
and there he was
smiling
and asking

Do you want a ride little girl?

She laughed
motioned that she would be
back in a minute

She slipped her cutoffs on
and a tshirt
tied her shoes
put her hair in a ponytail
and bounced out the door

She kissed him
and threw her leg over the back
of the cycle
grabbed him around the waist
and leaned her body
up against his
kissing his neck

He had the stereo blaring
and as they took off
he reached down with his left arm
and caressed her calf
as they rode downtown

When he stopped
at the traffic lights
he turned and kissed her passionately

She was thrilled to have the attention
and he was very intriguing

Suddenly she noticed
he had taken a detour
and she wasn't sure where he was going

so she leaned into him and
asked him
where they were going

Oh I have a surprise for you!

she thought they were going to
LaTuna
a local drinking spot
with eclectic clientele
cold brew
and interesting food

He pulled into a park
drove all the way to the back
of the park
parked the cycle
took her hand
and led her through the trees

She didn't really know
what he was up to
but she wasn't scared

He had given her every reason
to trust him
and no reasons not to

Suddenly she saw
a blanket on the ground
set like a table
with fruit and salad
close by
in a cooler
wine glasses
candles
and bottled water
were out as well
and as he led her to the blanket
and helped her sit down
she saw there were rose petals
scattered over the blanket

She gazed at the wonderful sight
of him preparing the plates
with chef salads
and placing bowls
of fruit infront of her
and over his shoulder

she saw something
hanging in the tree
He saw her looking
over his shoulder
and followed her gaze

He smiled
and told her

It is dessert. You will have to wait until after dinner.

and winked at her

They ate and talked
and laughed

He toasted her
and poured her wine

The food was wonderful
she enjoyed every bite
but she was enjoying him more
and he was quite
intoxicating to her

After they were done
she asked if she could
have her dessert now

and he smiled and allowed her
to retrieve the
package in the tree

She opened the package
that looked like a birthday gift
but wrapped in
plain brown paper

She was so thrilled
she reached over to him
taking him into her arms
and kissing him
with great passion

He pulled her to him
laying back
with her on top of him

After several groundshaking kisses
she starts unbutttoning his shirt
and before she knows it

They are laying on the blanket
totally nude
touching
grabbing
kissing
pulling
moaning

she climbs back on top of him
thrusting herself onto his
throbbing dick

his hands are on her
with her nipples between his fingers
holding her up

Slowly she turns her body
around
where she is facing his feet

She rocks back and forth
teasing herself
and helping him fondle her

They rock back and forth
having a wonderful time
making great love
they roll over and he
approaches her from behind
pounding into her
as they both moan with pleasure

finally they collapase
exhausted and spent

she reaches for the box
and as she does
she turns to him
and asks

So where is the cycle these keys go to?

and he laughs

you didn't notice it in the parking lot? You should have, it is purple....
and I cant wait to see you on it naked

well, let's go, you know I don't want to keep you waiting
she laughed as she got up and took off for the parking lot.

Wordless Wednesday

2006-08-16T06:46:00.000-05:00

Peonies???

2006-08-15T00:08:00.000-05:00

I have been,

once again,

trying to post a picture,

that doesn't want to post...

If you find it here,

it is because

I finally got it to post...

anyway

the caption is:

Captured at 115th and Allisonville Road
in Fishers ( Indianapolis ).
The sign is real
and was up for about two hours
before someone stopped and
told them how to spell
peonies...

I wonder if they come in long-stemmed!

What can I say,

RJ sent me this
in an email

I laughed so hard

and I still laugh...

ummmm....

well, nuff said...lol

Friday's Fantasy: Eating My Dessert and Having it Too

2006-08-11T04:53:00.000-05:00

Alex said I owe him a cake

So here is the Granny Bea
Chocolate Cake recipe

2 c sugar
1 c shortening or butter
2 unbeaten eggs
1 t red food coloring
3 t vanilla

3 c flour
1/2 t salt
2 t soda
1/3 c cocoa

Cream the first ingredients
and add dry mixture
alternating with
1 c buttermilk

When it is mixed well
add
1 cup hot (I boil it) water

Pour into a greased and floured
Angelfood Cake pan
Bake 320 degrees
for 1 hour and 20 minutes

And for fantasy
The warnings do apply here
some explicit language
and nudity follow

She tossed and turned
Sleep had not come easy of late
The light shining
In the window
From the full moon
Made it feel like dawn
Rather than midnight
Her dreams were
Fitfull and yet
As hard as she tried
To recall them
When startled awake
She couldn’t

She got up and walked
The front door
She opened it
And stepped out on the porch
To gaze at the
Huge round orb
Glowing and
Grinning down at her

There was a warm breeze
Flapping the leaves of
The banana trees

She sat down on the steps
Enjoying the view
And the breeze
And noticing how quiet
It was around her
No street noise
No sirens
No neighbors moving around

It was an intoxicating evening
And she leaned against the post
By the steps
Thinking of a man she once knew

Suddenly she heard a car
Approaching and a car door shut
He came around the corner
And found her sitting there
He had a box in his hand

He held it out
And smiled

She opened the box
Inside she found
A chocolate cake
And she smiled

She sat the cake down
And disappeared into the house

He sat down and waited
She returned with
Two large glasses of milk
And gestured for him to get
The cake and follow her

She walked around toward
The gate to the pool
Her white nightgown flowing
Behind her

She turned and smiled
And it made him smile

She sat down at the table by the pool
And he sat down with her

She reached into the box
And grabbed a chunk of the cake
She motioned for him to do the same

He followed her lead
She tasted the cake
And moaned with pleasure
Telling him how good it was
And that the icing was very creamy

He took a bite himself
And was paying attention to the cake
So he didn’t see her get up and walk toward him

She reached out toward him
With cake in her hand
And fed it to him
He did the same with her
And they exchanged bites
Until the cake in her hand
Was gone
She held her hand up
And licked the rest of the
Chocolate decadence off

She began unbuttoning
His shirt
And took it off of him

Then she unbuttoned his jeans
Unzipped them and pulled them
Off of him

He noticed the warm summer
Breeze was not as warm
As her hands
As they slid down his thighs

She reached for the cake
And took just enough
To give her a taste

She put it in her mouth
And waited for it to melt

While waiting
She reached into his
Underwear and stroked him

She got down on her knees
Using both hands
She caressed his thighs
Stroked his cock
And massaged his balls

When the cake in her mouth
Was melted
To a warm gooey chocolate
Concoction
She shared it with him
By taking him into her mouth
Kissing, sucking
Humming
Her mouth was warm
And wet and velvety
With the cake

She spread the cake
All over his dick
Until he was
A chocolate cake Popsicle

She proceeded to suck
On him
Removing the chocolate
And bringing him
To a full, throbbing
Stiffness
That he hadn’t felt
In a very long time

He sat watching her
Caressing her hair
Whispering her name
And how great she
Made him feel

She wanted him
And she wanted him to
Want her

She rubbed his legs
Moving back and forth
With his cock
Throbbing in her throat

She slowly moved away
Pulling him to a standing position

She stepped back
And reached down
And grabbed her gown

She pulled it over her head
To reveal her nude body to him

She stepped toward the pool
With his hand in hers
And led him into the water
He followed

As hot as the weather had been
The water was tepid
Like after a long hot bath
Had cooled off

When they were in chest high water
He pulled her close
Passionately kissing her
Holding her
Hugging her
Loving her

She held him tight
Wrapping her legs around his
Kissing his neck
Grabbing a handful of his butt
And pulling him closer

He picked her up
Pulling her down
Onto his wet, slippery cock
Bringing her down on him fully

They both moaned with pleasure

She rocked back and forth on him
And he pulled and pushed her
While sucking on her nipples
She bent down and sucked on his
Ear… neck…. Face
While twisting his nipples
Between her fingers

She could feel the cool breeze
Blowing, making her nipples contract
Even more

Her shoulder bumping into sometime
Something hard
Like metal

She couldn’t figure out
Where that was coming from

Then she felt her head jerk
And she woke up
Leaning on the post
Sitting on the porch steps

Wishing for a chocolate cake
As much for the cake
As for the delivery man

Bennu Too

Warm Brown Sugar Vanilla

Monday, First day back at Work List

Friday, Jan 2 list

New Year's Eve

The Gift of Time

My Favorite Part

A Tribute

Merry Christmas to ME

I Am Thankful

One Great Day or Happy Birthday Mr. Duvall

One Great Surprise

OK I Just Don't Get It

The Days get away from me

The Vision

Fantasy of a Lifetime

Dreams

Babes

When It Rains, It Pours

Friday Fantasy is Tomorrow

Greetings From Beyond...

Dreams

New Beginnings

Happy Birthday .... Friday Fantasy

Well Hello Sunshine ... A Friday Fantasy on Sunday

Life's a Bitch and so am I

Wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday

Blizzard of Beauty

Fantasy

Friday Fantasy On Sunday

It is a Personal Choice

Sometimes

Friday Fantasy

Wordless Wednesday- As I drove to the Muse's House, This was my View

Friday Fantasy

The Last Day

Afternoon Delight

Harry Potter Personality Test

Wordless Wednesday....what I did last weekend

Life's A Beach or..... Interesting Men

Friday Fantasy

Barry White by Savage Chickens

Wordless Wednesday

Dancing Passionately

Friday Fantasy.... of a different sort

Wordless Wednesday

Friday Fantasy

Wordless Wednesday

Icky Sticky Tricky Trust?

S*A*T*U*R*D*A*Y

Friday Fantasy

Wordless Wednesday

Friday Fantasy

Wordless Wednesday

Peonies???

Friday's Fantasy: Eating My Dessert and Having it Too

SATURDA*Y